Psalm 23:4

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and staff comfort me.

This is probably THE most quoted Bible verse at funerals. Truth be told, it does always make me feel better. My heart gets a little fuzzy because I see more than this being only in death. It means that God never deserts us. That even in our worst moment, he is there. Of course, that's why it's read at funerals. But God is also there during the good times. How quickly we forget that. Inknow we are all guilty of this, but why are we? In the times that are the greatest, shouldn't we be even more grateful and joyous? To me, this quote means that my God is with me during the most difficult of times, and how much does it show of my love that I would desert him when I don't need him? I see it happen over and over, and honestly it breaks my heart.

So then, why do we abandon God when we exault him to everyone for what he's done for us?
We say we want nothing more than to follow him and yet do nothing that he has taught us?
Why?
Just that one question, why?

Is it possible?

...To be sad over something that never even happened? I feel like I've lost a part of me, but what part is gone that was never there before? I wish I had answers to everything. But, don't we all?
I know it isn't my time now but why can't it be? I've waited for so long. And I don't even know what I'm waiting for, and that makes it all the harder, as much as I miss whatever it is, I don't know if I should seek it out or just continue as I have been. Is there something out there I'm missing?

Parents...

So the whole reason I started this was because of my dad. He thinks I have something interesting to share with the world, but do I really?
I've decided not to tell him about this until I become an international sensation.
HA!
So never? I guess I could use some people following these things first!

Does it ever go away?

In all the romantic comedies, of which I consider myself somewhat of a connoisseur, someone dies, right? Almost always, and the heroine always picks up and goes on her way.
HOW?
This is what I want to know! How does she deal with it? How does she not focus on it?
I've lost people in my life, important people, who meant the world to me and still every single time I think of them, I bawl. Not even the pretty tears where I get sniffles, there is snot, people, and a red face-- in a word or two-- not cute.
I need their secret because I wouold greatly appreciate not being overcome by sadness every time I think of it.